Monday, July 16, 2012

WIBWIW ~ "Here I belong...


In my first WIBWIW (Whatever, I'll Blog What I Want!), I mentioned I needed to take better care of myself. Without getting into too much detail, I've taken some steps in that direction and have been feeling somewhat better. Well, I haven't been feeling so awful, which, while a small victory, is better than none, I reckon.


But one problem I was having I've not yet resolved - when I don't have to get up early for work, I just don't get up at all, not till 11 or noon. I can't seem to get myself moving sooner than that, and when I do move, it's begrudgingly, gracelessly. Aimlessly. A few hours go by before I feel able to do anything, and then it's 3 or 4pm and I feel like the day's gotten away from me, and—oh, look, is that a Law and Order: Special Victims Unit marathon?

This goes beyond my congenital laziness, beyond procrastinating, beyond surrendering to distraction. I've been in a bad way. But I haven't yet fixed this. Wiser heads than mine have urged me to be patient and give the changes I've instituted time to help. So I'll do that. But this seemingly unbeatable inertia frustrates me, greatly.

Today (Sunday), I kept putting off my alarm clock until about noon and awoke in my dark living room, wanting nothing more than to go back to sleep. My eyelids fluttered repeatedly and I thought, "Just turn on the TV, that'll be something." I did that and the only thing that was coming on that appealed in any way was the 1986 movie Highlander. I'd never seen it and wanted to, so that's what I focused on for a couple of hours. What was good about me tuning into this particular flick was that a French/Swiss-accented fella (Christopher Lambert) played the titular Scottish Highlander and a Scotsman (Sean Connery) played a Spaniard. A Spaniard!!!


Each actor spoke in more or less his natural accent, though Lambert attempted a brogue now and again. This annoyed me so much I was motivated to go brew some coffee as I muttered darkly to myself. I made breakfast, I ate. I watched the movie, alternating between enjoyment of the scenes set in the New York city of the day, bobbing my head to the Queen soundtrack, and raging against the casting and those ridiculous choices. (I nearly threw something at the TV set when Lambert murdered the line, "My bonnie Heather!") The movie finished, finally, and I booted up my laptop and got to work on this blog post.

I had to get mad  to get moving.

I'm taking note of this, though it isn't the way I want to live. I want to move for the joy of it, not because I've been irked into movement. But I suppose that this, too, is better than nothing. In fact, I know it is. Anything is better than giving up.



24 comments:

  1. I used to be able to sleep wicked late like that, but now 8:15 is the latest I sleep unless my sweetie is home and we've been up early for a little roll in the hay then gone back to sleep. Love the LO:SVU marathons; I get sucked in soooo easy.

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    1. L&O = *very* dangerous, indeed. :-)

      I'm guessing the change in your sleeping patterns came from the happy change in your circumstances - and for that, I'm very glad for you. It must come from the feeling that reality is better than dreams...

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  2. I'm shocked, shocked I tells ya, that you've never seen Highlander. Then even more appalled at your ranting against such a classic film. Of course it's terrible, but to a sixteen-year-old boy, it's more awesome than you can handle. So it must remain so.

    And this, after I've tagged you on my own blog, telling people what good taste you have. For shame. So wake up and come on over. You have some questions to answer. :)

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    1. Brace yourself, Brent - I've not seen ET, Labyrinth, or Poltergeist, either. Are you out of your swoon yet? I lived a very, *very* sheltered childhood and teen life. My parents weren't big movie-goers and my mom wouldn't often let me go to see (or do) stuff with my friends (which is why the very first rock concert I saw was Duran Duran when I was 28).

      ANYWAY - I don't mean to rant against the film, per se, but the choices of actors for those two roles I mentioned, above. In spite of their awfully applied accents, I did enjoy the movie. :-)

      AND - thanks for the tag, Dude. I'll get on that...at some point. :-D

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  3. I'm with Brent. In 1986 I was 13 going on 14 and just discovering rock music through other friends in school. I was already a dyed in the wool D&D nerd. One day a mate of mine came hurtling into school shouting "There's this new film with immortals and swords! They cut each others heads off! Queen have done the soundtrack! It looks wicked!" And lo, it was wicked.

    Hindsight being 20/20 vision I take on board that Christopher Lambert's attempts at any kind of accent apart from his own were shocking and don't get me started on Connery's Spaniard. I refer you to his Irish accent in "The Untoutchables". Very much like his spanish one.

    I will not be moved though. Every time I hear Freddie Mercury tear into "Here we are, born to be kings! We're the princes of the universe!" the hair on the back of my neck goes up and I am 13 again. It's fantastic.

    As always Mina, lovin' your work.

    Rock on,

    W.

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    1. "And lo, it was wicked." - LOL! :-D

      And I have a similar reaction to that tune, too. You can't help it, really, can you?

      PS: When's the next installment in your "Reunion" story coming???

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  4. I don't know what the answer is to rousing you a bit earlier. I love my sleep so I try to get to bed early, I'm grumpy if the family keeps me up till 11pm. But I like getting up early too. Love the quiet of morning for writing. Maybe you need a dog? Dogs never listen to 'but I just want one more hour...'
    Good to hear you're making steps towards moving your life in the direction you want it, you're the best person to do it (or a dog, a dog could do it) :)

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    1. I would so, so, SOOOO love a dog (or a pack of doggies!!!). Alas, I've yet to live somewhere I can have one. :-( But I think you're right; a dog would be the grooviest.

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  5. WOW Reading this felt like I had written it myself. I have the EXACT same problem!!! If you find a solution, will you please pass it on???
    In the meantime, I LOVE the U2 video for Numb :)

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    1. LOL, The Edge was a good sport about having feet on his face, wasn't he? :-)

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  6. Hope you are doing OK. I'm jealous on a level because I never seem to be able to sleep in later than 7 these days. There can be only one version of Highlander - thank God. Actually there may have been more than one.

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    1. Thanks, David. I'm jealous of you, because surely you must be super productive if you're regularly getting up at 7!

      I believe there were several sequels to the '86 flick and, be warned, a remake's coming...with Ryan Reynolds as the Highlander. (What, Gerry Butler wasn't available?????)

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  7. Once a month Tony does sports cards shows about an hour away on Sunday. Sunday is really my only day off to speak of, and therefore my most productive. The last show he was at, he called to say he was on his way home and asked how my day was. I replied... "You know, I have no idea. I sat down to watch an episode of American Pickers with my bowl of cereal, and before I knew it it was almost 4pm"

    Sadly, this happens all the time. :)

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    1. Your boys must go with your husband then, or I guess they're willing to let mom relax just that one day a week??? ;-) I guess it's true we all need down time to do absolutely nothing and the trick is striking a balance of down time with personally fulfilling work time. Or, you know, a personal handler to make sure you do everything you're supposed to do. :-)

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  8. Wow, you're following my college sleep schedule to a T. I'm impressed. Even before my son came along, I couldn't sleep past 10 anymore. (Now I'm lucky if I make it to 7:30.) But enough about me.

    You just need to let your passions -- such as your writing -- pull you out of bed. Or, if that doesn't work, get a dog. A wee dog that needs to wee in the wee hours of the morning. That'll get you up and (eventually, after a cup of coffee) ready to face the day.

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    1. As I noted above, unless something magical happens, a dog's not going to be an option for me any time soon. Hey, since a bunch of you are early birds, maybe y'all could rotate giving me wake up calls!!! :-D

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  9. Sorry that this is completely off-topic, but wanted to let you know that we tagged you for a Liebster Blog Award :)

    http://horror-shock.blogspot.co.uk/2012/07/liebster-blog-award.html

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  10. It's wonderful to hear you're actively trying to increase your energy level, health, etc. I sure hope the new regimen works for you (or you find more Lambert movies to hate!).
    I feel tired and lazy a lot. I put it down to aging. Alas, no cure for that. lol

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    1. No cure for aging...boy, ain't that the truth! :-)

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  11. I used to feel like that. Basically overcame it by writing in bed, so that I could still laze and STILL have something to show for it. :-D

    Seriously though, inertia can be something of a habit. The only way to break it is to institute changes, which you did. And then you can't give up on them. Start stretching yourself bit by bit. For example, you can stay in bed and figure out what you want to do and how you want to do it.

    Once you know, you'll probably be more ready to get something done.

    I started like that, now I'm at a point where I measure everything I do against whether it adds any value to my life.

    But remember, it's a long process. Don't give up!

    Good luck!

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    1. Thanks for the tips and sympathy, Misha. You're right, about it being a long process - that's difficult for impatient folks like me. But it does help me sort of feel better about things having a plan to tackle them. Or even just a plan for getting by. :-)

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  12. Still struggling myself between balancing the weekend teenager inside me (why should I get up if I don't hafta?!) with the mature adult who knows science shows it's better for your health and sleeping patterns to get up at about the same time each day.

    I do take afternoon naps, on the weekends. But it takes about 3 months, they say, to "set" any new habits, like morning yoga or whatever. Good luck (and wish me some back, please)!

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    1. Thanks, Beverly. I wish I were a "napper," but I find naps give me a headache and make me crankier than usual :-)

      Wishing you LOTS of luck back!!!

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